DISCLAIMER : The characters , places and incidents in this story are a contrival of fiction.Any resemblance to real life stuff would mean I am a person wih psychic powers … lol 😀
“Oh,no!Oh , no ! Oh nooooooo ! ” ,Subhash shouted at himself! He could feel linkin park’s
“I have become soo numb, I cant feel you there ….” in his cerebrum over and over again.
He was going to be late again.He hadn’t yet shaved.The stubble on his otherwise childlike face was more apparent than just being plainly visible! No way! It was like a grisly bear’s hide! He had to shave it,especially since he’s going to meet her after a long time.
“Or maybe I should let it be!Make her feel that I have been too busy to even shave my oh-so-irritating beard! Then maybe she will be convinced that I have been too busy to meet her!”
Bullocks up his Oesophagus !! She’s not that dumb to buy that argument.She knew well enough that he had been lazy .‘Plain outright lethargic’ to think of the duty & responsibility that came with making a commitment.
“I had faith in you Subhash,and you have let me down !”the words rang in his year!
x-x-half an hour later-x-x
He was in the MMTS train,the one he boarded at the Pegumbet area.The Bachigowli station where he’s supposed to go was the last one on the local rail-route.
Seven stations more! And then he was to walk around a kilometre to reach college,where he was supposed to meet her at 9 AM sharp.No fixed appointment as such,but that was the time when she usually came to college.She had always been a punctual person!
Her words hunkered forth in his ears again ,“You have thoroughly disappointed me,Subhash! Day by day, I am losing my trust and confidence in you!”
“How can she lose her trust ? Does that mean that she trusted me blindly before ? Oh well! Maybe she did ! Otherwise why would she support me against all the others who accussed me of being such a useless fellow ?”
He tried to pacify the storm of panic within him by taking his mind off her and his commitment.He tried to shamelessly stare at the pretty girl in the blue corporate dress sitting across the compartment!”No Subbu No!how could you think of something else? ”
But it just didnt work ! The overwhelming feeling of guilt consumed him.She trusted him.Her final words beckoned in his head ! All his efforts in the last two days bore him no fruit.She stopped replying to his mails.He neither had the courage nor the fortitude to call her.So seemingly invincible had the feeling of his guilt become …
“I had faith in you Subhash,and you have let me down !”
x-x- an hour later -x-x
He was walking ,with his bag , lap top and all!He tried to rehearse what he was supposed to tell her! How should he convince her ? Summer was early that year …with the heat wave advancing its scorching entry to the city by nearly a month.He could feel the onset of sweat on his forehead.
And in her last mail a week ago ..she wrote :
” Subhash,I wasted a lot of my time and space for you.Most of the people in the college warned me against you.But even then I chose to ignore them all.I chose to trust you.Now you are gradually forcing me to think that they were right.”
And finally the statement thats been killing him for the whole of the past week , “I had
faith in you Subhash,and you have let me down !”
Suddenly he came back to his present senses!He was nearing the college gate!It was 8:58 AM !
.He ran for his life …
x-x-an hour later-x-x
“You were 1 month late ,Subhash! But the demo and presentation were good!You did put in an effort,my boy!I guess you can be given your engineering degree now.”,said a smiling Prof.Mema Shalini ,his 70-year old project guide,the only professor who chose to trust the jackass enough to supervise his project.
“Thank you ma’am!” said a grinning Subhash.Behind his head,he couldn’t help but think of the girl in the compartment,the one in the corporate blue-dress 😉